A note to those targeting (I am a Targeted Individual) me:
-To those intervening in my life:
a-you are not helping me in any way
b-I require an immediate cessation
-To those representing me:
a-I have never given anyone permission to represent me
b-I require an immediate cessation
-Why state this now and not sooner?
a-I have long had an avoidant personality disorder prevented me from stating this before.
b-This non stop intervention has driven me to distraction which has prevented me from stating this before.
c-I have long been out of touch with reality which has prevented me from stating this before.
d-I have long had me/cfs and brain fog which has prevented me from stating this before.
e-In my private journals (which all along you had knowledge of) I fought your intervention.
About me:
I have always been withdrawn and depressed, even as a child. I didn’t know it then but I suffered from a mix of ADHD, Autism and an organic brain syndrome (a brain fog). This was the 1950’s. Back then conditions such as ADHD and autism weren’t a common diagnosis for children, especially in rural southwestern Michigan where I grew up.
I drifted through elementary school, high school, college and graduate school. Without an accurate diagnosis and without effective treatment my condition gradually worsened.
In 1975 I got a job in Chicago. Around the corner from my workplace was a health food store where I would often go on my lunch hour. Frequent visits to the health food store led me to experiment with large doses of vitamins. It was a large dose of Niacin that led me to understand that the source of my inner emotional distress had an organic basis.
Around 1982 I spent five weeks as an outpatient at a clinic where they practiced Complementary Alternative Medicine. It was there that I was diagnosed with an organic brain syndrome, multiple vitamin deficiencies, multiple amino acid deficiencies, and multiple food allergies. It was at this clinic that I learned that I was born with gluten, egg and milk intolerances.
It was at this clinic that I began to learn that I inherited my father’s genetic pre-disposition towards mental and emotional illness. My father spent his entire adult life institutionalized with a total mental disability. I visited him three or four times. From those visits and my growing knowledge about myself and my condition I became convinced that my mental and emotional illnesses were inherited from my father.
I spent the next fifteen years working with amino acids, vitamins and minerals, all in an effort to improve my health. What I didn’t know then was that I needed medicinal herbs.
In 1997 I was diagnosed with Major Depression and Type II Schizotypal Personality Disorder.
In 2000 I was diagnosed with Chronic Major Depression and Paranoid Schizophrenia.
It was only around the year 2000 when I discovered medicinal herbs and began to use them that I began to make serious gains with my health.
Since the early 2000’s I have become more proficient in the use of medicinal herbs and Traditional Chinese Medicine. In particular in the past two years I have progressed considerably due to my own self-hacking efforts using the naturopathic and traditional herbal medicine approach. These techniques along with other approaches have become known as Complimentary Alternative Medicine, or CAM.
As a result of my many years of experimentation and use of vitamins, minerals, amino acids and medicinal herbs I have acquired an experiential familiarity with them. Essentially I have acquired a layman’s knowledge of this approach to health.
Late 1970’s: Experimentation in the late 1970’s with megadoses of Niacin led me to an epiphany that my life long misery of social withdrawal and depression had an organic basis.
1981-1982: Underwent extensive Homeopathic Treatments (Electro-Accupuncture According To Voll -EAV).
September 1982: I spent 5 weeks as an outpatient at a clinic where they practiced Complementary Alternative Medicine where I was diagnosed with with Severe Food and Inhalant Allergies, Exocrine Pancreatic Deficiency, Pyridoxine Deficiency, Multiple Amino Acid Deficiencies, Organic Brain Syndrome.
1982-1983: Replaced all of my silver-amalgam fillings with epoxy/resin fillings.
1990: Replaced all my epoxy/resin fillings with acrylic/ceramic fillings.
1995-1996: I had all of my fillings removed with no replacements.
July 1997: I was diagnosed with – Axis I: Chronic Major Depression, Axis II: Schizotypal Personality disorder.
December 2000: I was diagnosed with – Axis I: Paranoid Schizophrenia, Depressive Disorder, NOS, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
June 2003 (Updated): I was diagnosed with Major depressive Disorder.
2002: Learned that I had the HLA-DQ2 gene (non-celiac gluten sensitivity).
June 2008 (Updated): I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
August 2008: I was diagnosed with – Axis I: Major Depressive Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Axis II: Schizotypal Personality Disorder, Axis III: Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
2010: I was diagnosed with Damp Heat (Traditional Chinese Medicine).
2016-2017: I underwent intensive Musculo-Skeletal physical therapy to correct a lifelong structural imbalance.
2017: Acetyeldehyde – I learned about this candida producing toxic chemical just this year. I have had a Candida infection since age 10 or so.
February, 2017: I had a lab test that measured my Krytopyrolle. It measured at 23.87 (where 16 or over is considered elevated) indicating Pyroluria.
Fall, 2017: I spent 25 days in an Intensive Outpatient Program (I. O. P.) with diagnosis Schizoaffective Disorder, depressive type.
Summary:
I have been a self-hacker for the past thirty five years. I use mostly non-traditional meditation and Complementary Alternative Medicine to self-hack myself to my current status of being out of my life long brain fog and life long depression. I am currently able-bodied and symptom free.
I am a white able-bodied, cisgendered heterosexual senior male of mixed class.
I am a spiritually progressive, radically minded secular humanist. Everyday I strive to practice secular buddhism.